Has Life Made Love Hard?



Let’s talk about love, about your lifestyle of love.

Do you give it? Do you live it? Do you want it? Are you afraid of it?

Are you sabotaging it in your life?

Self-examination, especially internal is hard. Being honest with yourself about your feelings and your fears is scary. Being honest with someone else about those feelings and fears is almost impossible, especially if it has to do with them.

If you can identify your issues you can probably determine why you have them. Google it, “It’s always the mother’s fault”. You’ll be surprised at the number of postings.

I grew up in an emotional desert. My grandmother died shortly after giving birth to my mother. Her dad left her with his mom because he couldn’t raise an infant daughter and 5 year old son. His mother had suffered the loss of her only daughter in a high school bus accident.

Talk about emotional starvation.

Was love there? Yes.

There was love but that family was so damaged by life they survived by building walls around their heart. I’m a product of that and it impacts every relationship I have.

How do we take who we are and what we want, issues and all, and gift wrap it so that we can live our lives to their highest and fullest purpose in all things healthy, wealthy and wise?

That’s a lot to think about. But if I wasn’t passionate about living life to it’s fullest I wouldn’t be here on this journey with you.

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"God sent an angel to speak to me--
A word He was fain I hear;
And the angel brought the message
And whispered it in my ear.

"God knew I needed the word He sent--
I had lost the zest of fight;
And the right was all but beaten;
The wrong it was all but right.

"Simple the word that He sent me--
But it soothed a spirit raw
With the pain of too much striving--
’Twas 'Love fulfills the law.'"

~ Unknown





Tears Of A Clown

Now if there's a smile on my face
It's only there trying to fool the public
But when it comes down to fooling you
Now honey that's quite a different subject
But don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Really I'm sad, oh I'm sadder than sad
You're gone and I'm hurtin' so bad
Like a clown I pretend to be glad

Now there's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown, when there's no one around
Uh hum, oh yeah baby

Now if I appear to be carefree
It's only to camouflage my sadness
And honey to shield my pride I try
To cover this hurt with a show of gladness
But don't let my show convince you
That I've been happy since you
Decided to go, oh I need you so
I'm hurt and I want you to know
But for others I put on a show, ooh yeah

Now there's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown, when there's no one around
Uh hum, oh yeah baby

Just like Pagliacci did
I try to keep my surface hid
Smiling in the public eye
But in my lonely room I cry
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around, oh yeah, baby baby
Now if there's a smile on my face
Don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Don't let this smile I wear
Make you think that I don't care
When really I'm sad…I’m hurting so bad……